Forgiveness

It's an interesting concept. But what is forgiveness? Moving past something that hurt you? Trying to forget that someone hurt you? Or doing all that with the thought in the back of your mind to be more cautious that it would all happen again.

Is it unhealthy, then, to live on the cautious side? Is it bad that 'forgive and forget' doesn't exist in my vocabulary of relationships? Maybe I expect too much out of people. Or maybe I don't expect enough out of them. People can change, I can change.

There is something, though, that always gets in my mind if I'm losing a friendship, relationship, whatever. I tell myself that I survived without that person in my life, and if they leave my life now, I can go back to the same person I was before. Is that even possible? Some people change your lives so much and connect with you like no other. And losing them sometimes isn't an option, no matter how much it hurts. But how much more hurt am I willing to suffer? It's all in the ebb and flow of life, I guess. I need to learn how to take the good with the bad better, and embrace the bad for what it is and how it changes me. Everything happens for a reason, I just need to keep telling myself that.